There's so much work that I have to do, and I've realized that one of my personal failings is not necessarily the understanding of hard stuff. Rather, it's getting the easy stuff even started.
It's a main point of Better: performance isn't about the shiny tools: it is more about the "gruntwork". It's the mundane task of being consistent, of staying on target, with which I struggle and flounder about like a floppy fish. My failure to do better isn't for lack of technical tools or skills: what I'm missing is consistency. Adults should have the firmness of mind to do something even if there are no immediate results. But my mind is still mushy and squishy. It has the consistency of oatmeal.